Today you are one. How is that even possible?
This past year with you physically present has flown by. It feels weird to think of a time with you not being here. It feels like you were always supposed to be with us.
I feel a weird sense of sadness with you turning one. It is a vivid reminder that life moves so fast. This past year with you has been so very precious. I want to soak up each and every moment with you. Soak up how you smell, how you laugh, how you walk with two toys in your hands.
I think of myself and your dad at this time last year. So full of anticipation for you, not really knowing how life would be once you were here. That time feels like so long ago! The day we got to meet you, that feels like a distant memory. That day was wonderful baby. But honestly, I would pick any recent day over that one. We have had a year to learn you and get to know who you are.
Noah, you are such a joy right now. You are so funny! You laugh with everything you have. We like to pretend to "scare" daddy and you start laughing before we even see him. You are smart and I can see you putting things together in your brain. You are asserting your personality. You like to eat and get mad when breakfast is over! You want more! You are loving. You look at your dad and I and are able to sense how much we love you. The three of us are very close.
I can't wait to see all that you accomplish in the upcoming year. You are definitely a little boy and not a baby. You are so loved. We love you more than we could ever say. Your dad adores you and works so hard for you to have nice things. I know you will be a hard worker like him, you already work hard in whatever you are doing. Even when you are trying to rip the measuring cups out of the drawer.
You have helped me find the courage to start another business. At the end of the day I am your mom and that is the greatest job in the world. Anything else will just be icing on top.
Noah my love, Happy birthday! You are the light of my love. You have made this year magical. You have shown me a greater sense of why I am here are on this earth. How I was made to love, I didn't know it before you.
To the moon and back and all the stars in the sky,